{"id":4029,"date":"2009-06-28T15:33:27","date_gmt":"2009-06-28T12:33:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/?p=4029"},"modified":"2009-06-28T15:33:27","modified_gmt":"2009-06-28T12:33:27","slug":"dincolo","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/2009\/06\/dincolo\/","title":{"rendered":"Dincolo"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"dincolo\"<\/p>\n

O camer\u0103 gri, cu pere\u021bi negri spre baz\u0103 \u0219i cu o fereastr\u0103 av\u00e2nd draperia obosit\u0103 de apus, ad\u0103poste\u0219te egoist sf\u00e2r\u0219itul unui vis. Pe un pat \u00eencovoiat de g\u00e2nduri s\u0103race, ascuns undeva afar\u0103 din calea ferestrei, Filip prive\u0219te \u00eenalt c\u0103tre tavan, c\u0103ut\u00e2nd \u00eenc\u0103p\u0103\u021b\u00e2nat cerul de dincolo. U\u0219a metalic\u0103 groas\u0103, \u00een ton cu singura pies\u0103 de mobilier-un raft ruginit, cu dou\u0103 sertare-\u00eei blocheaz\u0103 orice tentativ\u0103 de a g\u0103si timpul uitat afar\u0103. Filip simte cum mirosul fad de mucegai \u00eel n\u0103p\u0103de\u0219te u\u0219or dar pare \u00eemp\u0103cat cu ideea de frig, ucig\u00e2nd fiecare lacrim\u0103 cre \u00eencearc\u0103 s\u0103-i spele obrazul ap\u0103sat de trecut. E singur, a\u0219a cum diabolic \u0219i-a dorit \u00een ad\u00e2ncul s\u0103u toat\u0103 via\u021b\u0103. Luminile din drumu-i au fost stinse r\u00e2nd pe r\u00e2nd de sor\u021bi iar acum este aproape de a se opri \u0219i el. Boala care \u0219i-a g\u0103sit sursa de putere \u00een g\u00e2tul s\u0103u \u00eei ofer\u0103 \u0219ansa unui final crud, plin de mon\u0219tri iar Filip \u00eel a\u0219teapt\u0103 mut.<\/p>\n

C\u00e2nd a p\u0103\u0219it pentru prima oar\u0103 la morm\u00e2ntul iubitei sale, Filip s-a \u00eenchipuit \u00eentr-o via\u021b\u0103 paralel\u0103, \u00een care trebuia s\u0103 pl\u0103teasc\u0103 toate poli\u021bele datoare norocului de p\u00e2n\u0103 atunci \u0219i din care spera s\u0103 ias\u0103 c\u00e2t mai cur\u00e2nd. Nu a fost a\u0219a. Au trecut mai bine de doi ani p\u00e2n\u0103 a realizat c\u0103 jum\u0103tate din el a murit. \u00cen tot acest timp nop\u021bi f\u0103r\u0103 culoare \u0219i pline de fantasme de necuprins i-au modelat fiecare clip\u0103 a existen\u021bei. Deja, \u00een universul lui din ce \u00een ce mai greu de p\u0103truns, iarna p\u0103rea c\u0103 devine z\u00e2na st\u0103p\u00e2n\u0103, \u00eenghe\u021b\u00e2ndu-i for\u021bat orice col\u021bi\u0219or inundat de imaginea trecutului. Fiecare zi devenise o speran\u021b\u0103 a finalului de drum. F\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-\u0219i dea seama, doamna rece a nop\u021bii era din ce \u00een ce mai aproape.<\/p>\n

Durerea fizic\u0103 a secat din Filip orice urm\u0103 de om iar \u00eengerul s\u0103u \u00eel chinuie \u00eenc\u0103, refuz\u00e2nd s\u0103-i pun\u0103 m\u00e2na peste pleoape. \u00cen mintea lui totul e gri, \u00eentocmai ca zidurile camerei, apus dup\u0103 apus, minut dup\u0103 minut \u0219i geam\u0103t dup\u0103 geam\u0103t. Filip caut\u0103 neobosit \u00eenaltul, ultima speran\u021b\u0103 r\u0103mas\u0103\u00a0 ancorat\u0103 \u00een privirea lui seac\u0103. A l\u0103sat totul departe, \u0219terg\u00e2nd fiecare urm\u0103 a pa\u0219ilor desena\u021bi pe calea alb\u0103 din spatele ochilor s\u0103i. Cu fiecare r\u0103s\u0103rit, zidurile se apropie din ce \u00een ce mai mult de de el, sufoc\u00e2nd \u00een t\u0103cere vreun cuv\u00e2nt uitat pe margine de g\u00e2nd. Deasupra, tavanul se \u00eenc\u0103p\u0103\u021b\u00e2neaz\u0103 s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 la locul lui. Mai urmeaz\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 o noapte…<\/p>\n

Ultima floare \u00ee\u0219i g\u0103si drumul c\u0103tre cre\u0219tetul acoperit de p\u0103m\u00e2nt al lui Filip. Un nor r\u0103t\u0103cit de v\u00e2nturi l\u0103s\u0103 un strop de durere peste peisajul \u00eenc\u0103rcat de cruci, c\u0103ut\u00e2nd mai apoi un alt tablou sec\u0103tuit de via\u021b\u0103. Filip, fericit \u00een ad\u00e2ncuri, \u0219i-a reg\u0103sit prim\u0103vara p\u0103r\u0103sit\u0103 \u00een amintiri. Apusul, u\u0219or, se \u00eentinde peste orizont, sem\u0103n\u00e2nd lini\u0219te \u00een cer. Filip, triumf\u0103tor, a \u00eenvins.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

O camer\u0103 gri, cu pere\u021bi negri spre baz\u0103 \u0219i cu o fereastr\u0103 av\u00e2nd draperia obosit\u0103 de apus, ad\u0103poste\u0219te egoist sf\u00e2r\u0219itul unui vis. Pe un pat \u00eencovoiat de g\u00e2nduri s\u0103race, ascuns undeva afar\u0103 din calea ferestrei, …<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[103,23],"tags":[517,1080,1337,1611,1799,2674,3082,3360,3415,3554],"class_list":["post-4029","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-promo","category-rataciri-lirice","tag-boala","tag-dincolo","tag-filip","tag-iarna","tag-jumatate","tag-primavara","tag-singur","tag-timp","tag-trecut","tag-viaa"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4029","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4029"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4029\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4029"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4029"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4029"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}