{"id":6796,"date":"2009-12-27T18:09:50","date_gmt":"2009-12-27T15:09:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/?p=6796"},"modified":"2009-12-27T18:09:50","modified_gmt":"2009-12-27T15:09:50","slug":"iar-m-am-certat-cu-filip","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/2009\/12\/iar-m-am-certat-cu-filip\/","title":{"rendered":"Iar m-am certat cu Filip"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Filip, obosit de singur\u0103tatea \u00een care l-am l\u0103sat de Cr\u0103ciun, m-a \u00eentrebat ast\u0103zi care este blestemul meu. M-am uitat mizer c\u0103tre el, spun\u00e2ndu-i c\u0103 nu m\u0103 simt \u00eempov\u0103rat de niciun blestem. \u0218i c\u0103 mai bine \u0219i-ar da jos de pe pere\u021bi pozele cu brazi \u00eempodobi\u021bi. \u201eE\u0219ti patetic\u201d, i-am zis. \u201eTu chiar crezi c\u0103, av\u00e2nd imaginile acelea cu beteal\u0103 \u0219i globule\u021be pe ziduri, te vei sim\u021bi \u00eenconjurat de s\u0103rb\u0103toare??\u201d, am pus punctul pe <em>i<\/em>. M-a scuipat. Incredibil! Niciodat\u0103 Filip nu a f\u0103cut un gest at\u00e2t de \u00eenjositor. \u201eAcesta e blestemul t\u0103u&#8230; S\u0103 te joci cu disperarea celor din jur. Eu sunt patetic? Dar tu, c\u00e2nd dansezi singur \u00een camera ta obscur\u0103, ame\u021bit de muzic\u0103 \u0219i Bachus? C\u00e2nd m\u0103n\u00e2nci singur? C\u00e2nd te plimbi ca un dobitoc, doar tu, prin parc, uit\u00e2ndu-te dup\u0103 resturi de via\u021b\u0103? Tu cum e\u0219ti?\u201d. Am privit \u00een ochii s\u0103i furio\u0219i, dorindu-mi s\u0103-i fut  o palm\u0103. Cum poate s\u0103-mi spun\u0103 a\u0219a ceva? Eu fac ce vreau pentru c\u0103 a\u0219a vreau. \u201eFilip, eu nu-mi decorez pere\u021bii cu iluzii&#8230;Tu e\u0219ti patetic, nu eu.\u201d.<\/p>\n<p>Ceva s-a schimbat. Filip a devenit mai nep\u0103trunz\u0103tor ca niciodat\u0103. \u00cel v\u0103d uit\u00e2ndu-se r\u0103t\u0103cit pe geam, aranj\u00e2nd imaginar pic\u0103turile de ploaie scurse pe sticl\u0103, oft\u00e2nd \u00eemp\u0103ciuitor \u0219i fum\u00e2nd iarb\u0103. Nu-mi spune nimic, nici m\u0103car nu m\u0103 mai critic\u0103. \u201eOk, nu e\u0219ti patetic, am fost r\u0103u. Treci printr-o perioad\u0103 dificil\u0103, nu?\u201d, mi-am luat inima \u00een din\u021bi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201eN-ai \u00een\u021beles nimic&#8230;\u201d, mi-a r\u0103spuns l\u0103crim\u00e2nd. \u201eNu m-ai cunoscut niciodat\u0103, n-ai v\u0103zut nefericirea din mine, n-ai \u0219tiut s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentrebi lucruri.\u201d, mi-a r\u0103spuns trist. \u201e\u0218i ba da, sunt patetic. Iluziile mele sunt ale mele \u0219i at\u00e2t. Eu le dau form\u0103 \u00een acest fel dar numai eu le \u00een\u021beleg. Tu e\u0219ti un prost.\u201d, str\u00e2nse din din\u021bi. A\u0219a e, nu mai \u00een\u021beleg nimic.<\/p>\n<p>Oare \u0103sta s\u0103 fie un blestem? M\u0103 joc cu durere, suferin\u021b\u0103? M\u0103 ascund dup\u0103 o masc\u0103 a \u00een\u021belegerii, de\u0219i nu m\u0103 \u00een\u021beleg pe mine? Of, cum \u0219tie Filip s\u0103-mi strice buna dispozi\u021bie&#8230; Iar acum, c\u00e2nd am nevoie s\u0103-mi dea r\u0103spunsuri, nu m\u0103 bag\u0103 \u00een seam\u0103. O s\u0103-l a\u0219tept s\u0103-\u0219i revin\u0103. Nu am ce s\u0103 fac. P\u00e2n\u0103 la urm\u0103, sunt frumoase pozele sale cu br\u0103du\u021bi, de pe pere\u021bi&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Filip, obosit de singur\u0103tatea \u00een care l-am l\u0103sat de Cr\u0103ciun, m-a \u00eentrebat ast\u0103zi care este blestemul meu. M-am uitat mizer c\u0103tre el, spun\u00e2ndu-i c\u0103 nu m\u0103 simt \u00eempov\u0103rat de niciun blestem. \u0218i c\u0103 mai bine &hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[103,23],"tags":[503,533,1239,1337,1630,2241,2443,2620,3655],"class_list":["post-6796","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-promo","category-rataciri-lirice","tag-blestem","tag-brad","tag-eu","tag-filip","tag-iluzii","tag-nefericit","tag-patetic","tag-poza","tag-zid"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6796","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6796"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6796\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6796"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6796"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/revistacioburi.ro\/revistacioburi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6796"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}